My Apology

Over a year ago, I was invited to partake in a private set of boards run by some close friends of mine that allowed stepparents to vent about their issues in private. Towards the end, things happened, and I made the choice to leave the boards. In doing so, without preamble, I lost some friends and said and did some things I'm not proud of. While I still think the world of the friend I stood up for, I believe I was overly harsh to everyone else in the meantime. That's not me and it's bothered me since. I want to take this space to make an apology to those from that board.

Mimi - Harsh things were said between us after it was all over. I'm big enough to admit now that I understand where you were coming from now and I went about my whole monologue the wrong way. It wasn't my intent to go behind anyone's back and be a drama monger. I admit, when you sent that message to me, I cried for three days straight. My heart broke. It's taken me months to admit it, but the fact that you saw me that way truly killed me. I apologize sincerely for any upset that I caused you and I can admit I fully understand where you were coming from now...

Ann - I have to make a personal apology to you. I don't expect anything in return, no acknowledgement of it or anything else. I simply want to say that I understand you better now. For all our differences, we are both hard headed and stubborn with the best of them. You and I are two different people with two different sets of circumstances and I appriciate that. You seem like a cool woman, and I do have to personally apologize for the "born in a barn" comment. I was overly harsh because I was irritated, not at you, but at the situation. At the time, I had been rallying for someone that I thought would come out clean on the other side, and that very obviously, was not the case. I was feeling taken advantage of and blinded and I lashed out at you when I shouldn't have. For that, and everything else, I'm sorry.

Lisa - You know everything. All our words have been spoken and I love you for accepting my apology and allowing me to be your friend again.

To everyone else - I am sorry for abandoning you all. Deleting everyone off my facebook and bailing seemed like the only available option to me at the time. I sincerely apologize for any hurt that I may have caused by doing so. I don't expect forgiveness from any of you, I just needed to let you know, I am sorry. I miss you all. Every single last one of you.

And lastly, to Foxie - I love you to death you old crone. I'm sorry for bailing the way I did. I know you understood where I was coming from but I still feel badly. When you deleted me, it hurt, and I got a little butthurt by it. What can I say, I'm still young and live in the moment. But, for all that, I miss you terribly.

Everyone in their life does things that they have to atone for, and I feel this is one that I must atone for. Regardless of the circumstances, the words, the feelings, I feel it's only appropriate to write this formal apology to all of you. I have no excuses, I felt I was defending a friend, no matter who was right and who was wrong, everyone will have seperate views about that (which everyone is entitled to), but I was not mature in the way I went about it. For that, and any hurt I caused in the process, I am very sorry.

I sincerely love every single last one of you and can only hope that you will forgive my transgressions.

Mel - Formerly Crazyisnotanoption

Flattery, how I love thee...

Second Hand Wives: 25 Rules for the Bio-Mom from your favorite.... the Step-Mother

I wrote the original list of 15 featured in the above blog back in September of last year. To see the original, you can check out the step parenting website I and my friend Jenny host here:

https://sites.google.com/site/theothermothersite/Downhome/Humor

Obviously the new writer changed bits and pieces to reflect their own story, however, I do have to say I'm flattered someone cares for my sense of humor. :)

The list was posted on a private website hosted by an old friend and my other step mother friends added to it. Then a well known stepdad posted the list in it's entirety on website called StepTalk, as seen here:

http://www.steptalk.org/node/50592

I feel specials....:)